Monday, March 8, 2010
Rainy Day Fund
So apparently despite my dreams of time slowing down so I can continue my blissful weekend, or speeding it up so we are closer to meeting our child are not realistic. This leaves me accepting time as it is, and trying to fill it in ways that are both productive and inspiring.
As a Libra (yes I'm a horoscope nutter), I have a huge obsession with balance. How to balance my life between the happiness and grief I'm experiencing, and how to find peace within it. My two favourite words are tranquility and freedom. How to find these in the day to day are the challenge.
I'm back at school this term and while I thrive on the structure and I love to learn I'm finding myself fairly miserable. Granted, it's certainly not the easiest chapter of our lives, but I feel as though once more my life is off balance. I love to write, however aside from numerous school papers I have not written much else.
I live in Vancouver, one of the rainiest cities and yet my rainy day bag of tricks has been rather depleted lately. I have neglected my secret box of things that make me happy. I'm an expressive person who has for many reasons stopped expressing myself. I need to rebuild my rainy day fund and find my every day treasures.
Part of doing that is merely doing this. Writing. It's the best way I know to express myself (I'm not one for big emotional conversations), and I think it may be the best way to get through the chaos that although uninvited has entered our lives.
So here I deposit one coin into my Rainbow Money Box labelled "blogging about life". It might not always be pretty, or graceful, but it will always be me. That said, I think there may be some light peaking over the clouds.