


I think everyone guessed correctly! I must be more transparent than I thought! I'm not in love with it yet, but I'm sure once it is here I'll be happy.
Remember how I was going to be a lion on the phone? Ferocious and aggressive? Well my roaring was more of a small pitiful whimper. I cried. Embarrassing to admit but it's true. I actually cried on the phone. Thankfully the man helping me was very nice and had two children and a foster son at home so he said he understood completely. I'm still a little red faced to have cried to some stranger. Yes, this poor guy had to listen to me explain our longing to be parents and how our adoption agency went bankrupt last year and it's been bad news ever since. I would be even more embarrassed had he known I was still in my pajamas lying in bed after rehearsing my fearless speech and customer demands to three rather confused cats. Wimped out doesn't begin to cover it! Although the cookie dough I'm currently inhaling is making me feel a little better.
We are getting a refund as well for shipping, tax, and surcharges. With this refund I am now ordering the shag rug and lamb. The crib we want is on back order (naturally), so it won't be here until the end of October. I am not keen to look at my dream crib for that long, so I think I'll be closing the door for now. My dear husband admitted that as it is he winches every time he walks by the room. I'm sure imagine clients will relate when I say, remember how we were gong to having 10 referrals a month by now? Seems a lifetime ago. The good news is I'm going to have fun decorating the nursery with the new crib! I love to design so this will be a fun challenge. I'm trying not to think of the fact I will now have had two cribs and no baby. I think I'm going to make some more cookie dough.
I know this will pass and had the timing not been during a month where we seem to be going nowhere in our adoption this might not have stung so bad. During a month with ten referrals maybe it would roll off me a little easier. Or a month with any referrals to be honest. Hopefully next month is chalked full of good news and this crib will seem like a silly little memory in the face of a bright future!
Thank you everyone for your input and support! You all made this so much easier. Also thank you for all your ideas and suggestions. I sincerely appreciated them!!
Here's to October blowing our socks off with referrals, court dates, and visas!!
Jxx